Re-Introducing Myself

I like to imagine a being, maybe also God, sitting on a dilapidated sofa in a hushed room, above or below this surface to just think. If ‘Self- Love’ comes into this being’s mind, what can they say? I have also been wondering why this idea of ‘Self-Love’ is on trend these days. I found no exact answer but here are a few reasons why I think it is being brought to our attention more often. So many of us if not some are lost in satisfying people’s perceptions of what they call ideal lives. Lots want to conceal their mediocre attitudes, failures and weaknesses. After they are successfully hidden, people will often see us as ‘Certain and not Confused’, ‘Strong’, ‘Rich’, ‘Kind’, ‘Fulfilled’ ‘Successful’, or every word to help us fit in and get where we think we will do better. If Self- Love is just about the hours spent at the gym, in restaurants, hot bathing or time spent out with friends, some people would feel happy and fulfilled within just an ⅛ of their whole day. Given they were able t...

A bitter thought grew from how complicated it usually is for me to wake up very early. I can stay up all night, but whatever requires me to act as an early bird, my body completely goes against it. For so long, I have wanted to be among those I see waking up very early or going out in the evenings for sports activities. As a student, the only time I could control was my mornings. Due to my unpredictable school timetable and work, I rarely had free evenings too. Just like some, I could plan to go out for sports and end up failing. At times, I could be too hard on myself and wake up or give up some of the important things I do in the evenings but it did not help that much. I often had bad days because of waking up very tired and some evenings were just spent with me worrying about what I left undone. Little did I know, that there is always beauty and strength with however our bodies function. I am not able to wake up very early for workouts, but I can walk lots of hours during the day. W...

It is crazy how the world will make you think that if you are always different, you will either be among those who have made or lost it. I mean in terms of how you appear in front of people, your background, daily routines, places you have been to, offices you sat in, etc.  This picture was taken some weeks ago but when I looked at it again last night, I realised something really beautiful. Look at the two other people in it, wearing almost the same color as mine. Isn’t their presence in white adding to the beauty of the picture or that place depending on what interests you the most?  Yet we always want to wear something so we won’t look like any other person, or we just want to be smart but still different. Specifically for pictures, how often do we sweat in search for empty spots assuming that it is the only way we shall end up with a perfect picture? There is surely no problem in wanting things to be different, it is just detrimental when you feel you can’t afford to be dif...

  The world will probably often introduce me in the names of what I got from school and so I chose this picture too. This month, I have just come to the conclusion that if I don’t give up, I can actually get everything I dream of. Until around June 15th, my graduation was still a dream. I was as excited, happy, afraid and confused as you might be. But here I am, a month later, graduated!  I think I now have an idea of  what I deserve, may be very demanding to some and to others very normal or cheap. Within these past three years, I have learnt the importance of focusing on my business and let others be and live. Should I say I have mastered that, will I even ever graduate in that too? I don’t think so, I just try maintain an acceptable pace for me. Lots of passions were also discovered along this journey. I have lived in different places, some I liked and some I didn’t. Have I ever talked about the anxiety that comes with moving or  travelling. From carrying heavy ba...